listening : BY2 - 发呆
maybe it was to give myself some time to myself without thinking too much.maybe it was just a sudden craving to read.and ive been reading quite a few good books on my phone. :3though im feeling RAAAHHH over the fact i read a fanfic for harry potter when i thought it was the original edition of the deathly hallows. ):but other than that, i like reading from my phone.its easily accessible,i dont have to luggggg my ever heavy books around, i dont have to agonize over sore wrists/hands from holding thick cover-ed books.(since my phone is obviously lighter.HOHO.)the only problem i face is determining if the copy i obtained is the original or another fanfic.its not that i detest fanfic of any sorts. just that i prefer to read the original before attempting to see how other people depict the story. gives the author more respect no?i have currently cleared :1. The curious case of benjamin button (surprisingly short... so i worry about its authenticity. plus the recent fanfic writers are writing relatively well. so im still doubting if its the original...)2. The five people you meet in heaven.3. For one more day.and im currently reading The Kite Runner.i really like No. 2 & 3.i like the curious case of benjamin button but i feel that the story can be developed much better.unless it is due to the fact im not reading the original copy...but seriously. books like this carry their worth well.no only is there a story line, the message they are pushing across comes out really well. :3and the kite runner seems like another great book. but im only halfway done.so i dont know if the ending is any good yet.after reading so much, i suddenly pondered.if im in the same situation as the main character in the kite runner,meaning your friend is in danger, maybe in mortal danger, maybe in some sort of very deep trouble that might drag you in badly, like maybe cost your life or something like that.am i going to be as strong willed as the father, to live up to his beliefs, and stick up for the weak?or be like a coward and run away, being fearful of what might come upon me?i know what is what i want, and what is the right answer.but doesnt mean i can live up to it.even after serious thought i have no idea how i will react.maybe i will only know when the time comes.i hope my will is strong enough not to crumble under pressure.i hope i am not going to be the one to run away.probably even after i have ran away i would never be able to forgive myself.《发呆》
眼睛睁不开 你的理由不精采
冰融了一块 还是听的不明白
阳光有点歪 马路开始塞
你搭配的表情让我发呆
maybe 在乎的人就是活该
我的难过说不出来
对你不理不睬 是否相信就能够
不存在也许再过一个礼拜
你会想念我的依赖
到时候我不敢 保证还为你等待 do u mind ?
手表忘了戴 你的沉默太慷慨
撑不住脑袋 前前后后像钟摆
你表现无奈 我并不想猜
这冻结的温度让我发呆
listening : 情歌 - 梁静如went to vienna today to celebrate early father's day. (:saw this in dad's coffee. my brother was like : "JIE JIE JIE!!!!!"then i turned and saw this image -- >and i started to OMG OMG OMG OMG also.LOL.nice hor. not generated by photoshop, not tweaked by me or brother.it just appeared like that in the coffee. SO COOL.and suddenly i thought. could it be someone/something is telling me to hold on?not to give up yet, give it some time to settle down and resolve the problems?hopefully it is. i dunno. i suddenly realised you cant make a person wait for too long. for a lot of things. opportunities are lost, people get frustrated, and overall you get a negative atmosphere altogether. and i realised ive been waiting and waiting.but thats not it. i have been waiting and waiting and being ignored generally.and i just sink deeper and deeper into emo mode cause problems are not solved. not even addressed or acknowledged rather.its once again being ignored. so good job. i have finally found another person more capable of avoiding problems than me. JUST GREAT.and now in a bid of being childish, being frustrated, and pisssed altogether,im going to downright emo until the 21th of june and beyond. HOLY CRAP.i decided today i shall try and stay positive the next few weeks. ignore all these, go out with my frens, and let go of it for the moment.before i finally do kill myself from thinking too much.im going to stop waiting. if you call, good.if you dont, im not gonna freaking wait next to my phone like some idiot waiting.i will just get on with my life. and if one day you find you have drifted out of my life totally, its not like i didnt tell you.because im tired of putting my life on hold because your busy. so busy its like im non-existant.s.h.e-我们怎么了
落泪以前再看一眼
你模糊侧脸
这会不会是最后纪念
我凝视你而你凝视
窗外的阴天
一句抱歉都僵在嘴边
我搞不懂
*我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透
我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么
复活
你的笑脸还在胸前
晃动着昨天
为何回忆会让人晕血
如果我们继续向前走进雨里面
会不会有溶解的危险
我搞不懂
*
明明从前
连真挚都很甜美
现在怎会
说句话就能肿一边
我搞不懂
*